Even though my son has been going to a pre-school, two to three days a week, for about a year now, I found myself full of tears when my husband and I enrolled him in Kindergarten this week. We decided to enroll him in private school because we love the enviroment, the students and the teachers. It's important to us that we get our son started in the right manner.
Anyway, we enrolled him, which was about an hour-long process. Then, on the drive home, I started crying. I wasn't sure why I was crying and it took me a while to figure it out. I think I realized that I am closing the door on having control of my son's life every hour of the day. When he starts Kindergarten, he has to be there every day -- except for illnesses -- without fail. I no longer have the option to spend two or three days out of the week with him. Sigh. It's hard to accept.
Yes, I want my little guy to grow up and learn all the things he needs to learn, but I am going to miss him so much while he's in school. I guess one of the things about being a stay-at-home mom. You get used to having your children around you and then one day -- poof! -- it's all over with. I really have enjoyed being able to spend so much time with him.
Well, as we get ready to close the door on one stage of his life, we open the door on a world of new opportunities -- chances for him to learn and grow as an intelligent, kind and respectful individual. It just takes some getting used to, I guess.